Just when I thought.....

You know life is truly funny, downright hysterical at times and then there are those times when we have to laugh SO HARD to keep from crying......guess where I'm at? Yep, still trying to keep the laughter alive as I blog today...
My greatest misconception has been that family, I'm speaking bloodline, should feel a sense of bonding, a true relationship....but not nearly so in my case. All my true family(bloodline) has passed, never to be replaced, so I've made my own family and find more comfort and compassion in my chosen crew then my "remaining" bloodline. It can be very disheartening at times....especially in the sign of the times....
Just when I thought it was safe to trust, they remind me that it just isn't so. I get to a point where I believe what they say, and they really mean the opposite. It's so scary, I just have to laugh.
I believe that's my issue with trust. It stems from not being able to trust those around me, I'm talking about the cornerstone of unconditional loving trust. They try, they put forth a good effort but when it comes down to a reality check, they are off the charts! It's just a menagerie showcase. How can you trust someone who is constantly dissecting and filling your life with negative thoughts? It's what I call the dope fiend move, they must make me look bad to make them self look better.
Thankfully, I know who I am, I know what I want for my children...nothing will stand in the way of that , including family...I've got some more tough decisions but I will survive.
It's just indescribable to know that you are a constant rejection in the eyes of your family...it's a fantasy world they have created and hey, if they like living in it, I love to let them...just don't f**k with my children....
This is another stepping stone in life for me, maybe actually just a continual confirmation of the "certifibility" of my family...they are certfiably crazy.